Date: 2018-02-18 14:30
My husband and I have been together for 79 years this September. He cheated on me about 77 years ago, I didn 8767 t have a clue until someone told me I asked him and he said no, but my gut was telling me differently, a few years later I told him I was feeling uneasy and if he did cheat now was his time to confess, and yes he told me he did. I was crushed but by this time I had two young *censored*ren and stayed, I could see that he regretted it, but still the pain of it was gut wrenching. Move forward 65 years and he is depressed and moody withdrawing from the family, I confronted him and said do you love me and he said yes, but I 8767 m not in love with you. Man my heart got broken that second, he moved out and I didn 8767 t want to give up on a man who I loved so much, I gave him time and space and he ended coming home 6 weeks later. we both said things need to change, well I changed I put in 655% and him maybe 65%. He is studying at uni so is around alot of *censored* people and I think he feels he 8767 s missing out on something, I guess it 8767 s fun and exciting not being tied down like them. I must say I never fully trusted him again after his one night stand I forgave him but found trust a hard thing to deal with. I 8767 m a very calm and giving person so I was never this phys co bitch I never told him I don 8767 t want him near girls again but went he talked about girls at uni, I didn 8767 t feel comfortable with it either. When he returned after leaving for 6 weeks I told him I know I have trust issues, but seen he has been away I had to trust he was doing the right thing, and I said I will trust you now. And I did. But a couple of weeks ago my gut started churning he was always on facebook, he passworded his phone and computer. He got a new phone and didn 8767 t password it so early one morning I got up to check it and there it was he 8767 s cheating on me, telling her she 8767 s beautiful and he misses her hugs and i want your body next to mine. This only happened 9 days ago and I 8767 m devastated, I asked him to move out and he has. He texted me saying how sorry he is and i haven 8767 t responded. I love this man sooooo much I never thought he would ever do this to me again after the first time. I don 8767 t think it got physicial but the intent was there and he should of been saying those things to me. Can anyone give me some advice on how to get it all out of my head, I 8767 m dying here. His *censored*s hate him and he sent my daughter a text yesterday saying, be nice to mum and look after her, I love you all and always does that sound like to anyone, I just want to talk to him, but I feel if he wants this to work and get sorted he needs to approach me, I want to know what he 8767 s thinking, what he wants to do. But maybe I need to let him go, but how do you let someone go you love so much, but then again if he doesn 8767 t love me there 8767 s no use. He did tell me the night before the discovery that he really does love me. Thanks for reading, any help would be greatly appreciated.